if there was a day that i felt such a vast mix of emotions. its today.

anxious. annoyed. disappointed. loved. contented. absolute joy. angry. upset. defeated.

hahaha how can anyone feel all that in 24 hours?
i did.

prelims are here. one down. and a lifetime more to go. ):


we shouldnt have to be reminded that we are special.
we shouldnt have to be reminded that we are precious
we shouldnt have to be reminded that we are a miracle
we shouldnt have to be reminded that we are loveable and loved.

makes a whole lot of sense i think. start being less critical cheryllee! of yourself and others! from pinkie's blog. you wont mind yes? =)

and i dont like this survey. but well, hahas. shall attempt it. zy! stop making me do so difficult stuff. i need to reserve my already-very-little braincells )):

1. What is the best nickname you ever had?
ryllee. (: i just like it.

2. Which way of suicide would you choose?
uh. i will go think about this when i m in depression mode or something.

3. Rate your social life from 1 to 10.
HAHA. you kidding me? cheryl has no life please.

4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
:D haha many many people. you you you you you you and -you (:

5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
um.. i guess subconsciously i do?

6. Will you die for the one you love?
honestly, i dont know.

7. Do you think love hurts?
two extremes i suppose.

8. What is the best thing about love?
makes you one happy child. (: and that nothing else really matters all that much.

9. What is the worst thing about love?
the lack of it.

10. Will you wait for someone you love?
uh. i suppose?

11. What song best describes your love life at the moment?
part of your world-the little mermaid. not love la, life in general i suppose? and these questions about LOVE is crazy annoying. lol. i m so about to give up!! ):

12. Do you wanna get married?
i dont even plan for the next HOUR. why would i think so far ahead??

13. Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
yups =)

14. Do you keep memories?
it cant exactly be forgotten right? just placed aside. inside my vast and empty mind.. hmm.

15. Is love always on your side or the opposite?
rah i dont even want to try conprehend that.

16. Are you sick of love?
it doesnt seem possible.

17. Are you sick of the the question of love?
YES. mind draining please. hahas. cant i have something lighter? favourite food and drinks seem way better! =P

18. What are you going to do tomorrow?
sigh. school. home. bed. whee.

19. What do you want so badly now?
discipline. seriously.

20. What's the song that you last downloaded?
hahaha. er. right where you want me- jesse mccartney. its not nice=/

21. How much do you love music?
i actually do quite a bit. but i never had the drive to learn it well enough.

22. Do you play an instrument?
piano. well, i playED.

23. What movie did you last watch?
election2 on dvd. it was crazy boring omg.

24. Do you believe in love forever?
haha not really.. scepticism doesnt really disappear over time.

25. What's in your mind now?
is this thing finishing? can i finish one econs essay by today?

26. What song is in your mind now?
er, the line "to all the teachers in cj-SEEE" has been running through my mind for the weekend. lol.

27. Five people to do this: sorry people. haha er, cc brandon kim chel and est (if u can find the time) hahas=)

i m off. no more blogging cheryl. no more.


okay okay. proper blog post before zy makes me do some silly survey that i really dont wanna do! =P hahahas.

anyhow, another week flew by without me even knowing it. time seems to be passing faster, in a way. hm. school, tuitions. boring week actually. oh and chaoching's birthday was on the 25th as well. yups...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CC!! :D
yups, silin and i had a baking session on the 24th too. really fun(: and morning runs are back, well, not everyday, but better than nothing. simone, ju and i have a 10km standard chartered marathon on the 3rd of december... so ya. lols.

okay sidetrack!!
OMG. i just read from weekendTODAY that this group of singapore poly students are going to disney world florida for an attachment!! URGH. YES disney world FLORIDA. i m sooooo jealous please): sigh. i wanna work there too. that place is so happy and everyone that goes there is so happy! i think working there will make me really happy too! and i want to be one of those disney characters where all the little kid run to you to ask for your autograph as well as beg you to take a photo with them as they wrap themselves around you, grinning toothily! AWW. so cute yes? haha! :D okay snaps out of this little daydream.

yar.. hami melon season is in! (: eating really good ones now. so crunchy and sweet!


whatever you do, dont kill it!! or have cravings for sashimi or whatsoever. i m sure it wont taste good! =P hahas. hope you like it(: loves!

teachers' day celebrations on friday was not too bad(: quite amusing. pretty much enjoyed it. =) i am gg back ij with xt for teachers day celebrations after gp paper! =) i wanted to go for mass! miss ij masses. hmm. oh i think i slept a lot yesterday. hahas. i love the feeling after a loooong sleep! and looking in the mirror and seeing the eyebags fading off! =) sense of personal self satisfaction indeed (: lols. oh and we got our class photos already! pretty much like it. =) see how each of us changed, and how we havent. (:

okay, i am off. this is a pretty decent entry i should think. econs tuition tomorrow morning at some unearthly hour. -HUGE YAWN.


♥ -you

anyhow, mocks are over. yay and prelims are in a couple weeks. brilliant :D i think i can sound pretty convincing being happy when typing, if i may say so myself.

should stop typing short blog entries. but i gtg. seeyou.


enough.


i hate nights like these when i question myself a million and one things.
only to find out that i do not have the answers.

heck it. i have no time for this.
stop thinking. get to sleep.




okay totally wrong mindset i know. prelims is coming cheryl dear. WAKEUP.


i need a break.
its not that i have been working extremely hard, just feeling quite sick of school. physics mock left. lets hope i do okay for it. i think i haven passed physics in a long long time. hmm. i met chel today! and got my disney badges. and she decided to come to my place and stink up my room after her 2.4. haha, shall not be mean, since she came all the way down to give me those badges. lols(: but that clever girl took my mp3 along with her and now i m stuck with her little creative. haha, i will have to see her soon enough again! hahas.

nessa bay and i are going to learn driving together after out As! :D yay!!
nessa;
1. you are one of my bestest girlfriends!:D and probably the sillest i ever met! and i love you for that! =D
2. hmm. how about eating seafood, OTHER than fish. =P
3. em white actually. haha just because?
4. i like how we have similar reactions to things and how u crack me up! =p
5. well, guides. some girl who happens to click it off w the seniors while us shy ones keep quiet. ahahas!
6. paws macutesy. just because he is SUCH a spoilt brat/cat(?!) cos of YOU. =P
7. whens the next cnpc outing! (: this time YOU organise=)

hmm monday nights are worth looking forward to now! =) its AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL please! :D:D but runway is ending soon!! ): nvm. no more senseless blog entries from me. i was quite hyper before this but i m feeling tired now. YAWN. i cant get rid of my eyebags damnnn! ): i think I need osim icare. and look as cool aas cyclops yay.


love is the closest thing to magic.

aquamarine is such a cute show! :D i want compliments from starfish too(: -grins


okay quick update.
7km muddy-dirty-boring walk.
six hours of tuition yesterday.
less than enough sleep.
another six hours of it today.
two hours of math.

i look awful. i want all mirrors to be destroyed.
"you look tired" makes me feel really sad. i must look like crap.

chel. no purple skirt please! be nice to me!!! =P and dont remind me of that TERRIBLE incident pls! u guys were no help at all, laugh at me attract attention only. oh and the answer to the question is obvious. YES. and i mean it (: and SMILE!! :D

zy. well, u see you just frowned. hahah SMILE MORE!!! =P its infectious. :D:D after you go into deficit. hahah AND NO NO NO NO MINI SKIRTS! =P not unless u get one(which means i will nvr have to get one. HAHA)

oh and we have no school on friday!!! =) yes only reach school by 2! =) MY LONG AWAITED SLEEP. okay. i try not to think about math mock.

yawn. runway awaits my arrival. [edit] RAH! got cheated. completely forgot about national day [/edit]
and i need to be able to look LESS tired! ):

happy birthday singaporeee (:


eugene;
1. your green contacts you wore made u look scary.
2. how about not calling me for a day?
3. green ( think cos of green ranger/contacts/crumpler. lol )
4. your smile (: ( cold is NOT COOL )
5. er, u changing seats next to me cos i happened to be under the fan.
6. golden terriers. OOPS. hahas. sorraye! :D
7. why me?

rachel;
1. you should eat. lol.
2. wear a skirt out when we find a date to go out. =)
3. blue ( cos of your prev online nick )
4. your silliness (:
5. i cant remember. but clearest is the time when u flew off the bus seat cos u laughed at me. YES YOU DID OKAY DONT DENY!=P
6. beaver. okay that just popped into my head.. =/
7. did you ever blame me for us drifting apart?

zy;
1. you turn your rabbit on. OPPS.
2. try wearing something pink ((:
3. sorry zy, but PINK. just cos i know u hate it so..
4. ur amazing ability to entertain my nonsense. lol.
5. =/ eh, i really dont know actually. you going to eat taco bell with silin i think.
6. golden- just because of jazz:D
7. what will make you happy?


If you comment on my tagboard,

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

because i am ever so bored =)


STOMP is addictive. hahas.

i need to do work. weathers very hot. and cheers to a boring national day week ahead.


blogging too much.
im tired. i sleep more than an average jc student. but i m still crazy tired. mentally i think. haha. times when i think i am asleep, i dont think i really am.. can a sleeping person think of when to wake up? or know stuff that happened around her when she is asleep? i dont know. times when i get up in the middle of the night, then falling back asleep in a couple of seconds. i hardly remember them in the morning, but i do. sometimes. i think.

YAWN. i wish i didnt have to go to school.

i want to go for the law career talk as well. damn. ):

tired. i haven been watching the 9pm show. after having not watched yesterday, not so interested in it anymore.

i got a new hairband. and fun lunch out with nessa bay. hahahas.

cold. and very random.
okay will stop blogging.


utterly unreasonable.
minimal contact will be best for either of us.